It's been about 3+ years since my last post.

It's also been some time since I've worked on any music (10 years or so). I posted a new track tonight: https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/1197238

I plan on posting more music soon (I'm already working on 2 other tracks right now). Can't wait for you all to hear them! They're turning out great. Now I just need to know how to end both of them!

Hello to everyone, it's been a bit. I haven't been around for a while, I can give a million excuses, and it's interesting to see how this website has evolved. Even in 2020, Newgrounds can still be is relevant as it was when I first knew of it in 2000. Wade, Tom, and everyone involved, have fostered a community for users to come to not just to socialize, but collaborate and build content. As someone who has collaborated with other users in the past, I can tell you, I love what we pitch together and create.

You could say that the events of 2020 have influenced me to make this post -- as I am working from home right now. I can be frank and tell you I have been in the business I am working in for years and I don't like it, but I do great work and make great money. However, I have always known that what I do best is create stories and tell them--and it throws me that not any of my Flash animations or my past creations really tell a good story or anything, when I know that some things I haven't shown anyone are very strong and powerful. On Newgrounds, I never really had confidence that people would dig my animation style (it sucks ass) and appreciate the story along with it, so I never made anything, and it wasn't anyone's problem but my own. I'm not looking to change that with animation, but I am looking to change that when it comes to a physical medium, as I would like to be producing live action productions, both short and long. I wish to transition into this, but at that the same time, not wanting a lavish life filled with money and things. I'm not Kim Kardashian, but I do a great impression of her.

As the events of this year have unfolded, a lot of creative ideas have sprawled. A lot of ideas have also come from my Mother's death in August 2019, something that rattled and shocked my world to its core, only to find that half of a year later my life would be rocked again by a pandemic. It's been a really rough time for me (and I'm sure everyone else right now), and watching the situation with the world go down has had me wondering at times "what is the point of my existence?" As strong as the feelings are to just give up at times, I desire more to live, but I think everyone can share the same feeling at times when we ask ourselves "what the fuck kind of world are we living in?"

Right now I am still living in Utah, but instead of living right by the northern border by Idaho in country towns, I am living in the Salt Lake City area. Right now the Coronavirus situation is brewing exponentially in our area. We've known people who've gotten it, however the mortality is so low here that not many people are dying, and I only know people who know of people who have died so far. But nonetheless, it is devastating and absolutely horrible. What is frustrating to me is that some of the people don't understand & go out to protest the science and nature of this virus, and it's going around like a wildfire. This is the thing I worried about happening in March in Utah, only to see it hit NYC very, very hard, and it was because the behavioral change that occurred in NYC that they were able to get the pandemic under control. That is not the case in Utah.

I'm not here to debate anybody or get into fights, but I will say this much: I'm concerned with the lack of response from a good amount of our currently elected officials, and just wish we could all get along so we could control this virus. The politicization and polarization of the pandemic has left a lot of people convinced that nothing is wrong, and they are going about their lives like the pandemic doesn't exist, and it is terrifying to me.

My father has decided to remarry and was holding a ceremony this coming Friday, and I was supposed to be best man. However, I talked to my father and warned him of the dangerous consequences of this virus. He listened very carefully, and he discussed it well with the rest of my siblings, and it was all agreed that there would not be any gatherings after the wedding, and that the wedding would be incredibly slimmed down. I, the best man, am no longer attending in person. Am I upset? Sure. However, I will not let my father die in 2020 after my mother died in 2019. I am only 33, and I haven't had enough time with my father--I never had the best relationship with him until I moved to the city, and now after my mother died, I consider him my best friend.

Anyway, this is a lot to unpack for me because it has been so long, so I will get to the point.

Ever since 2007/2008, I have been thinking of creating a television series that spans 6-7 seasons long. The series is about a person who returns overseas after serving for the military of the country, to find that a collective of mafia-like figures have killed his family (and this is the reason why he returns home), and he embarks on a dark path of revenge. The father had dealings with elected officials in the government, and as the story goes along, deep betrayals occur, and the fight turns into a systemic one as one of betrayers come to power with a misinformed army by their side. The end-game of the series changed with the events of 2020, as I try to channel and question “where are we headed with civil unrest?” The story was never intended to be ended with civil unrest for the longest time, but the events of this year have made it no question to me any longer. The story I am looking to tell is about the devastating consequences of the most impulsive of our decisions, which is a message that needs to be warned on right now, as that is a lot of what we are seeing. If we are not careful, I am concerned that the future I imagine for the fictional world I am looking to build could become an the actual one. It is indeed odd how I can think of such a story, have it make me anxious, but continue to think about it, because it is important about where we’re headed next, and where we will go if we’re not careful.

The working title I have for this story is called "Vengeance".

A lot of the music that I have listened to along the sequences I am looking to create have been very deep, raw, and emotional, and one of those songs in 2019 after my mother died that was on constant repeat was "Hurt" by Nine Inch Nails. When my mother died, my musical and creative world became a lot darker and more wide, and when COVID hit, the effect was amplified even further. Then when George Floyd was murdered, it was apparent that the world was either becoming or approaching darker places than even the most macabre of dystopian fiction.

"Vengeance" is not the only series I have thought of.

Around or shortly after my initial ideas for the early seasons of "Vengeance", I had thought of another series I wanted to work on, and this series is named "Midnight".

"Midnight" was to be set in a post-apocalyptic world within the first few episodes. The story then changed to the apocalypse happening later in the first season. Then, I tried to think of where the future seasons would bring the story. I could get to a season 4, but the story was no longer interesting enough to me and very hard to grasp in my head, for during the time of me trying to conceive the story, the more I was concerned of turning the filmic realism into unbelievable spectacle. To speak on the realism of nuclear war--my sequences of a nuclear holocaust would be relentless and unforgiving, because that is nature, but a nuclear explosion is too powerful for it too be shown over a 20 mile radius over the span of 1 minute. By 1 minute, the blast wave of the nuclear dentation would have far surpassed a 20 mile area, and would be destroying things with the forceful winds several more miles away. In our past deprecations of nuclear wars in media, the fires and hotness of the explosion last for too long. While people experience tremendous and unbelievable pain when a nuclear bomb explodes when they are not killed right away, the amount of time they have left is only a matter of seconds. Where I live in Salt Lake City, I would be vaporized by a nuclear explosion above downtown in under 2 seconds, if not immediately. Nuclear war is spectacle in itself, but a story about nuclear war is about what causes it, and the harsh and brutal ending it leaves in its wake.

The story of "Midnight" has also changed as of recently, because a nuclear apocalypse would be final for the human race and so many other species. The devastating effects of a nuclear winter and a completely disorganized society would certainly come true, and after re-watching "Testament", "Threads", and "The Day After" many times, I can say that even these wonderful pieces of fiction are softer than the actual reality would be, even as biting as they already are. The films are hard stomach, sad, and incredibly devastating, but they were also incredible to the effect that the productions convinced world leaders to thwart potential future nuclear war.

Unfortunately, as of recently, the real "Midnight" according to The Bulletin of Atomic Scientists may have them saying that we are getting closer to midnight on the Doomsday Clock, and that we are on the brink of worldwide chaos and societal disruption. My story is indeed the consequences of that, but it is unbelievable that in the real-world, we are approaching the very things that could create those consequences. For example, what will happen in absence of a peaceful transition of power? That's when I understood that the reality of my series would be about the devastating and ignorant consequences by specific people, and the societies of people that rationed with them. Not only that, but it would now be a limited series, due to the finality of a nuclear war. Only one season would be produced, and the story would end, with no possibilities of any stories being left to be told. That is the bleakness of nuclear war.

2020 has woven very many more dark stories into my head. My messages may be very political and disliked by many, but each month this year has had something significant and unique with it that can't afford to be ignored by civilized society. We are each experiencing our own stories right now, and perhaps this could bring about the strongest collaborations. But how do we do it in a real-world setting as I would like with COVID in play?

With that said, I have decided over the next month, I am going to do my best and document everything I experience with this election, so I can tell my nephews and nieces and their grand children with visual context what the world is like, so we can all learn and understand what we need to avoid to achieve peace. Many creations about nuclear war in the 80s did this, which subverted The Cold War many times until Chernobyl (ironically a nuclear accident) was the nail in the coffin for USSR Russia. I find that it is more important than ever to tell our stories of 2020. These stories are important for history to understand where mankind needs to head next, otherwise the unwise people who lead us will never be influenced to understand what mankind really needs. As some of us already know, some people who lead us don't care what mankind needs and are only out for their own self-interests.

Let me also be clear--I have no desire for post-election violence. Unfortunately, the world turns in wicked ways, and I'm afraid for America, we are very much headed in that direction this year. I hope I look back at this post a month from now and find things are not that way, because I have been worried a lot since March where things would head, only to find myself watching things I worried about come true. The night we went into lockdown in Utah back in March was a dark one, I remember thinking about people possibly becoming violent over pandemic, division getting sewed between us even further, only to see it come true in ways I could have never imagined. In a sense, I was right--and I am not proud of it, it does not stroke my ego, and I do not want anything I've thought of recently to come true as well.

For this month, I have been thinking of doing a recording of myself each day to detail how I'm doing and what's going on with the world, and how I am being impacted by it. I think it is a more important time now than ever, because if we remain silent and don't tell our stories, the world will never understand us to want to make a change. Sometimes I worry that we're running out of time before it's too late to tell our stories. Sometimes I even worry that telling the story won't make any difference. But, there's giving up, and then there's trying, so I think I'm going to give it a try and see what happens.

I have a YouTube channel here that I will start posting things on as time goes along to show my progress. I hope everyone stays well and stays safe during these hard times.

Hey all, I haven't been around for a while, so I thought I would post an update.

When I last posted, I had been making music. I was attempting to be an artist, and I was really trying to be a good one, but I thought about it all and I ended up deciding that I didn't think it music was something that I was meant to do. What I should be doing on Newgrounds probably involves music on some sort of level, but I think that I am a terrible musical composer, and I wouldn't know how to make good music if my life depended on it.

Before I abandoned doing the music thing, I had to endure some pure hell, as my move away from home was anything but successful. About five or six months later I was back at home anyways, and I basically had to start over. I was on the edge for a year straight after things fell apart, mostly due to breakup. I had really given my heart away to someone, and they abandoned me. It wasn't the most wonderful feeling, but I did learn a lesson in the end, and it was that at 24, I was still a child.

I swore to myself at some point after my return that I would grow up and change things for the better, and that I would do anything within logical and moral to survive. I know that sounds rather dramatic, but I can’t stress enough how terrible things were. I was withdrawing from multiple prescription drugs that doctors prescribed me to treat depression (all of which fucked me up too, and not on purpose), and I was by all accounts a complete mental mess.

Now I have told you where I have been, and now I’m going to tell you where I went next. I ended up going back to work for a popular fast food chain, a job that really bothered me, but I felt as though that I had no other choice for work. In the process I made really close friends, some of which that I will have for the rest of my life. I also made unpredictable enemies, and they always happened to be above me. Something tells me they were threatened by me. I felt like an ego-trip magnet.

For the next year and a half, my life almost became entirely devoted to this job, except for the 4 months that I would work for a call center along with the fast food job. The fast food job would always follow me home from work too, as certain social aspects of it were not always very enlightening or positive. Customers could be really mean, a co-worker could go AWOL without anyone expecting it, or the next thing you know you could be getting yelled at for doing something exactly the way you were trained to do it. But yet, there were also the people that made you enjoy your job a lot too, and this made quitting an incredibly difficult experience for me. That and my parents begged me until the end of the year to quit, but this job was a fucking emotional roller coaster. At some point, I realized that it ultimately had to end.

And it would end at some point, and thankfully it did soon enough, because near the end it went insane, and quite literally too. We had crazy people driving rape-vans coming into our store taking pictures of all the customers. We had a guy who threatened my general manager with a gun come and hang out in the store a lot. The next thing I know, I couldn’t do my manager duties without being freaked out at for querying on why labor was so high or how to do something. Seriously, what the fuck. This happened three days before I left with a 3 week notice. I had been a manager since June and it was the end of November by the time I had left.

I was so glad to be done with the job. Unfortunately, it was a deperate last-ditch effort to leave the job, as the solution was the same as the last time I tried to quit (this would be my second quit attempt after returning home and getting the job back).

The solution was to work at a call center, something I had done previously before the fast food job. I spent months hesitating to apply for it. When I finally grabbed my balls and applied, I received a call within 5 literal minutes of submitting the online application, and the next day I was sitting in an interview that I absolutely nailed. I would be operating three computers making three phone calls at once, pushing buttons on a keyboard interacting with the people that we called. At the end of the interview, I was told that there was a possibility of moving up in the company after three months of employment, and an IT position was available. I decided I would work my ass off the next three months to prove that I would be of worth to be on the IT team.

It’s funny how this all started, because this job started just like anything else, but it didn’t end up being like anything that I ever expected to happen. The first day of training was okay, I was new to the company and I wanted to do my job right, and I was scared that I wouldn’t adjust properly. I tried memorizing all of these keys I had to press. Four hours in the shift, I doubted myself incredibly. I worried that I couldn’t do it and I would probably end up quitting anyways, but I told myself to get over it and keep trying. Then by the sixth hour into my shift, I was nailing every quiz for button pressing that I took. I would come in the next day and nail all of the other quizs too.

On the second day before my training shift started, I was sitting out waiting in the lobby about 15 minutes before the shift started. I was the first one there if I remember correctly. A man came downstairs and got on the single computer in the lobby used for typing speed tests. I had no idea what he was doing, but I decided to strike up a conversation with him just for the hell of it. I don’t remember a lot of the conversation, but I remember talking about complex computer jargon with him. He then told me who he was, and I nearly shit my pants: He was the IT manager of the call center. He asked me if I could come in even earlier tomorrow morning before my shift, he wanted to talk to me about putting me in IT. I nearly shit my pants again. I never expected it, not for a moment.

That’s when things really started to turn around in a better direction for me, because the next day they pulled me out of the three week training course that I had been in for two days to put me in IT. And the pay was a lot better than the fast food job ever would be. For the next five and a half months, I would experience a more different roller coaster. I would discover that doing IT is way different than I expected, but I would also learn that I was able to take these curveballs brilliantly. Five and a half months in and all I have heard is praise. I can’t recall being late once. I have become indispensable. It turns out people not only like the job that I do, but they fucking love me too, and that’s what gets me up every morning.

Gone now are the days where I felt threatened by being good at my job. On my first performance review, my boss said that I am meeting every expectation, but he really wants to see me exceed more expectations. I decided that it was time to really apply myself more than ever, not just for the money, but to become empowered with knowledge, and the eventual opportunity to know how to do things masterfully. This job is like learning to play a complicated instrument, but each day I’m learning.

I started to think about Newgrounds today and how I haven’t been here for quite a while, and I also thought about just how complicated Newgrounds' infrastructure probably is, and how stressful it must have been to manage it in the early 2000s when everything would break quite frequently. That’s what I get to deal with everyday right now at my new job. But eventually, everything came together really nicely for Newgrounds, and hopefully so do things at my job as well.

It’s funny, I have gone from suicidal to somewhat having the ideal life, but of course it isn’t without its incredible ups and downs. I still live with my parents until I get enough money to move out, and I ended up losing two cars in a six month period very recently. The first wreck was due to the other driver failing to yield properly, and 6 months after that I lost my new car due to me failing to yield properly, and due to the other driver failing to lookout correctly. The new car was actually a used car, and I had put $2,300 into repairs in the six months owning it. That was the worst experience ever, but I finally got another new car, and one that I won’t spend thousands of dollars on the next six months repairing!

I hope you have enjoyed this little update on my life. I am suprised if you read through it all if you did, I hope it wasn’t too painful of a read. Anyways, life is calling my name and I must adjourn from my computer chair.

Until the next news post, peace out.

...And it won't take more than two years this time.

In my previous news post, I posted my first ever upload to the Newgrounds Audio Portal. Now I'm introducing my 2nd upload. It's basically the same song, however it has moved into more of a final production stage, and this is what is finished so far. The finished track should be ~5 minutes.

http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/470137

You can also find it on Soundcloud here: http://soundcloud.com/mq6/mq6-the-flow-demo-v2
Along with the older demo: http://soundcloud.com/mq6/mq6-the-flow-work-in

Enjoy :) Feedback is appreciated!

So, after mixing music for 6 or 7 years, I am bringing my music to NG.

http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/469270

It is a sample of an unfinished song I will be releasing in the near future.

Enjoy =)

I've decided I'm continuing into mashups. I believe this is not only an improvement over my first mashup, but this might be my best track yet. Enjoy. Download link are after the embed video.

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Get the track here: http://soundcloud.com/mq6/we-found-lev els

Get more MQ6 music here: http://soundcloud.com/MQ6
Follow me on Twitter: http://twitter.com/MQ6Music

In 2006, I moved from "comedic music to a more appreciated genre in my eyes: Electronic.

My tracks have never been uploaded to NG (for reasons I don't care to go into), but one of my tracks I made back in 2006 now has a trippy music video.

You can watch it below, or you can watch it in HD here (recommended): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zEKW5hV fQWw?hd=1
You can download the track from Soundcloud here: http://soundcloud.com/mq6/traction-con trol

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I don't know how well kept up all of you are on NDAA, SOPA, or the other acts/bills that are trying to be signed into law right now. I'm not going to place political bias, but I just watched a disturbing video of police arresting protesters for protesting the National Defense Authorization Act (NDAA).

I don't care if you against or for Occupy Wall Street, NDAA, SOPA, or the other crazy shit that is going on in America right now, but this video just set my anger on fire. There are no words.

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Life is different now, and I've been shooting videos of what is going on. Here is me and my boyfriend being weirdos for 10 straight minutes. You WILL be entertained.

Another masterpiece from yours truly. I made this back in 2004 when I was 16. Yes, I was that much of a crackhead when I was younger.

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